my head is a television
my ears are statelites
frequencies
every thought a station
magnified by emotion
one station for nalini a love lost
found and lost again
a station relgated to recurring episodes
of futility
one station for alicia
a love trying not to fade away
every episode something new added
to reboot
one station for the world
a station for utopian dreamers
a show called imagine
hosted by john lennon
plays everday
one station for truth
the children screaming injustices
galvanised in shame
from station to station i switch
while the world passes by
and i take in the stimuli

The silver release of my pen,

Striking the pages, a bittersweet symphony…

Nothing comes to mind,

But your tender embraces,

The way you tasted,

After, in the beginning and during.

My crazy little scribbles,

In a frenzy, like magic.

Without a rope, without a harness,

Without a compass to guide me,

I had climbed the highest mount.

But now, I’m falling, freefalling,

Lightheaded, drunk on what was,

My sweet escape, my treasured past,

You the keeper of my heart,

Thanks for the memories…

your on the tree and you cutting it down
your on the bench , judge your fucking around
you lie,we buy
you feed the need you created in me
our complacenecy
your kill the thrill
you built in me

Four month old baby Hannah Bhawandeem is in Urgent need of a liver transplant. The surgery can only be done in the U.S.A at John Hopkins Medicine International Hospital the approximate cost of the liver transplant is US$ 300,000.

Date - Saturday 16th August 2008
Admission - $40
Doors open - 4:00pm
MC - THE ELECTRIC JOSE
Free parking
Security by the door

Featured Bands and Times:-

• Krash 5:15pm
• DFY 6:00pm
• Requiem 7:00pm
• Vox Deus (Acoustic) 7:45pm
• Everything Is… 8:30pm
• For I Have Sinned 9:15pm
• Az Daylight Fades 10:00pm
• Taking Down Ivory 10:45pm
• Anti – Everything 11:30pm
• Spectral Vibes 12:15am

I miss the feeling of skin on skin

How our bodies collided like water and sand

The shudder running through my body each time you touched

I wish to feel the exchange of our body heat

And the softness of your hair running through my fingers

I miss your presence behind me, pressing against my back

The warmth of your breathe on my neck

And the bittersweet whispers in my ear

I miss the emotions that ran through my body each time it happened

How my heart sped up

And my mind went racing

But it’s dry season again and the river’s dried up

The leaves are burning while the sun shines bright

I sit in the yellow fields where the drought grows fast

And the thirst raves on while I fade away…

Eyes filled with falsehood

A lie behind that smile

You could fool anyone

Even for awhile

You’re ever so sweet

So wrong yet convincing

A medal for deceit

And a trophy for pretending

A face for each occasion

Not one to be trusted

You bury away the truth

That will soon be forgotten

You put up this façade

And lose sense of reality

But that doesn’t matter now

If you can be any identity…

Solution to our burdens

We indulge in the forbidden

For it is these sins that lead to salvation

And temporary revelations

So intoxicated we become

To conquer the thorn in our sides

Enslave ourselves to our worst enemies

Who become gods before our eyes

Gluttons for our vices

And the relief they posess

So weak we were born

To seek refuge in vain

Slowly deteriorating

Absorbing the pain

Then we wash it all way

With the devil of solution

The only answer

The greatest conclusion

The world seems so obsolete to me
everything seems so flawless
so very strange to me
my heart was poured into loving you
and I had begun to despair
everybody else seems to think they know me
but do they really?
I am so used to being with someone
that now she's gone
I am finding myself so naive to the
ways of the world
I have no love for any other but her
and even that love is fading
the twilight passes and fades like the tears I cry each new day
everybody else has forgotten you
but I still remember.

moonlight angel.

the sun sets and the man stands alone under a streetlamp
people pass by and sometimes they stop
admiring.... laughing....listening..... watching....
they stop... and walk on by.
in the alley... hiding in the shadows... is a presense..
watching.... hiding... fluttering in silence
so as not to alarm.
she stares and the tears roll down
chiselling her face..
her mouth opens and closes and soundless words come out,
things that should have been said... things that she is sorry about saying,
things that need to be said.
things.... so many things.
he props his dull guitar on his knee...
and tunes it softly......
a slight breeze lifts the hair on his hand.
his pores raise.
he smells her perfume... distant..... light...
he looks around and sees nothing.
he sees
nothing.
could be a memory....
he quickly clears his mind and tunes on.
a shiver crawls down her spine and her muscles tense from holding still
he doesnt want to see her... not yet...
he cant see her....
as much as she wants to just feel his warm breath holding her tight..
to hear his voice whispering that its going to be alright....
she just stares...
she always did stare
with her big dark eyes.... she always stared... and always watched
and when she didnt even know it he had stolen her heart
but that matter is still blurry
because it could just have been that she gave it to him.
she did give it to him
threw it at him and ripped it away and gnawed at it and then threw it back
and ripped it away and gnawed at it and threw it back and ripped it away
and gnawed it... till it was just his... written in blood his name all over her
heart....
and his name that is etched so deep within the muscles that it can never be erased
his name.... so large and bold that no other can ever fit there.
his name....
except
she didnt know what he eventually did to her heart.
if he kept it.
if he buried it.
if he hid it.
if he killed it.
but all she knew was that she didnt have it anymore.
fluttering there alone in the alley...
she didnt have that heart anymore.
she didnt want it back for sure.
she wanted that man... holding the guitar to wear it
proudly like he used to once before....
once.... seems like a long time ago.

angels and demons staring at themselves through a looking glass
making faces at each other
angels and demons doing the square dance
circling around each other
angels and demons playing hide and seek
looking and finding each other
angels and demons all around laughing
then shouting at each other
angels and demons praying in their house
eyes closed in concentration
angels and demons.... demons and angels.
which is it that they feel like today.

for once she may have been his moonlight angel.
feeding him her love.
once she was his everything...
and she was nothing without him
but then along the way things changed
and the sun came out too hot that day
and their bodies boiled over
when angels and demons came out to play
and she turned into the his demon.
as the sun sent out its deadly rays
they fought and fought all day
and in the stormy night
when it was supposed to go away..
he decided to leave.....
and didnt wait...
for the angel to come back out and play.

and she watched him try to leave
and did all she could to beg him to stay
but he had made up his mind
earlier in the day
and she cried and cried
till her body went dry
because she was staring at the man
who could no longer see her.

and it hurt and it killed her
and all the other angels
watching over
wondered what was going on....
and then the demons roared
and they told her to forget it
but she denied it.
and lost it
and then cried some more.

things got worse the day after
when he wasnt there to no longer greet her
and
she was in disbelief
and tried to find him
searched the world
and came so close to him
that he didnt even see her drive right next to him
and when she rang
they didnt want him to talk to her.
and she heard them and cried
and died just some more inside....
because he didnt want to see her anymore
and when she heard his voice rang clear
in the night air
her soul raced and her wings lifted up once more.
it was just enough to hear his voice on that lonely night.

and she waited some more...
and stared at his face
etched in her mind.
and cried a million dozen times
cried and cried
and was denied
that love that she wanted.

and he said they would probably be friends
and then announced to the world that he no longer loved
and she wondered what then became of her heart.......
because it could never be hers again.
and she wracked her head.
for all that was said.
and she prayed and prayed
to be allowed a chance again
cause she knew that she would never
make the same mistakes again
never
ever again.

the angel man watched under the hood of his eyes...
and sighed at the guitar.
he wondered what the words were once before.
and he fiddled and strummed
and the chords rang out loud
but its melody was sad
and ripped at ur soul
and made the tears well over.

and the moonlite angel
hovered closer
to just get one last chance
to hear his song.
and she ripped out her wings
and handed it to him
laid her soul bear at his feet
and sat in the corner
to listen to him
for it was all that she had
and all that she was
without him
and everything was his
for the keeping
always was.
always will be.
and the man looked up
and a fog was close
and didnt see.
he peered into the white
and maybe searched
and his voice said her name.....
quietly.
ever so quietly.

Black_Mamba